Looking Good, Feeling Strange

Dear Readers,
Last night, I must say, I looked great! 
Cute little dress, little black boots, bling!
Went to a dinner party with my dear, dear friends.

So blessed to be loved by these beautiful people.

Most of the time, I didn't even entertain the thought of
They are drinking.
As more bottles of wine came out,
Sitting right in front of me,
I started feeling almost a panic.
A feeling that they are having more fun.
Like I don't belong here.

Now I KNOW these are MY thoughts.
No one else cares if I am drinking or not.
In fact, these dear friends want the very best for me!

I do struggle with social anxiety.
I LOVE beng invited to parties!
But sometimes when I get there,
I find I struggle with feeling I am different. Trying to make conversation.

I think drinking helped me in party situations.
It helped me to lighten up.
It helped me to feel a part of the party.

Most people who have stopped drinking say this gets easier in time.
I hope so.
I really do.
Because this morning, I'm a little sad.


  1. The next day I am happy because I'm not hung over and realize I did not miss anything...

  2. Don't be sad be PROUD. Though I don't struggle as you do with drinking I find I feel better and accomplish more in life when I don't drink. I am super proud of you.

  3. Dear Readers,
    Thank you for your kind comments.
    I am much cheered by them.
    I will carry on!

  4. Never would have guessed you have social anxiety. You appear so confident! Believe in yourself.


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