This post finds me a little up and down, a little teary-eyed.
I might not be my perky self, but I'll try to suck it up!
(Words from my Loved One!)
I am AF now for 6 months.
This weekend I had a stronger thought of drinking. In fact, it was my old evil little liar voice telling me I could drink and no one would know.
What a little liar that guy is!
The trigger was feeling left out on a face book post.
That is still an issue for me, even after all these years.
It stems from way back in childhood, with my speech, hearing, my eye, all factoring in.
I was never in the in-group and always wished I was.
I am working on this with my therapist, and I am so happy I have her.
So, now I'll switch to my perky self!
It turned spring overnight here!
Went from 8 degrees to 50.
It's lovely! No snow, no mittens!
What's good about being AF now?
Well, the mornings are still wonderful.
I love waking up sober.
I love being grateful for all I have.
I love having a Loved One who everyday tells me how proud he is!
I love helping other people in recovery.
I love knowing there is more out there besides drinking.
I love knowing I am driving sober, so I don't hurt anyone.
I love knowing I am stronger than I think.
There is nothing negative about not drinking.
Yes, you can live without drinking, and in fact, it is a beautiful way to live.
You don't need it to be funny.
You don't need it to relax.
You don't need it because you "earned it" after a hard day.
You don't need it because you fight with someone.
You don't need it at a party.
You don't need it.
I hope all of my friends in recovery stay strong today.