Tuesday, March 3, 2015

How to Be Yourself and Like It

Dear Readers,
I am in a joyful mood, despite the fact that it never stops snowing, and it's so cold the icicles are shivering!

Yesterday, my yoga teacher spoke about being yourself. 
You can only be yourself, of course, but all my life I wanted to be somebody else.
I wanted to be a famous singer, or a dancer.
I wanted to be that pretty girl, the popular one.
I wanted to be the rich person, the one with a cabin.

I almost never wanted to be me. 
In fact there were plenty of times when I hated myself.
Drinking helped me pretend I was someone else, and fueled that self-hate.
When I was drinking at a party, I could pretend I was the exotic singer.
I could pretend I was funny, brilliant, the girl everyone would remember.

Part of my journey getting sober is learning to accept being me.
Even the dark sides of me.
All of me.

I do believe I can be a better wife, friend, aunt, teacher, by being myself.
I can help other people in recovery by sharing my story honestly.
By being a human.
One that loves, laughs, and cries.

What can I give to someone else today?
It is only by accepting and knowing my gifts, can I give.

To all my friends in recovery, I wish you the peace of accepting and loving yourself.

6 comments:

  1. Accepting yourself is so important. And you seem lovely, so it will surely be a treat for you to accept that lovely person you are! xo

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    1. Dear Thirsty,
      You made me laugh!!
      I will be my own sober treat!!
      xo

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  2. I love this :-) I never wanted to be me, either. And you're so right: drinking fueled the self-hate. So happy we are learning to love and accept ourselves. The ultimate sober treat! Lori K

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    1. Hi Lori!
      I'm happy I am myself today!
      The more time sober, the better!
      XO

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  3. You have no choice but to be yourself because everyone else is taken!
    Be nice to yourself.
    lisa

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    1. Hi Lisa!
      I'm happy being me today!
      Thank you for supporting me!!
      Hugs!

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