Thursday, August 20, 2015

Back Into The Light

Dear Readers,
I am so sorry I haven't been able to post or comment on your blogs.
I have have been in a very deep depression.
I was very worried for a few days. So was my hubby.
I didn't leave the house for four days, and just non-stop crying.
I am on anti-depressants, and will be seeing my doctor tomorrow.
Depression is such an awful place to be. It's so painful.
I have suffered with it for many years, and this last week was very difficult.

Yesterday, I felt I was finally in a better place.
I still am not great, but so much better.

Several things have happened since my last post.
I had my birthday.
I saw my family, whom I seldom see.
I went to a cool play at the Fringe Festival.
And of course, I went out to eat!

I am so thankful I am feeling more like myself.
I smile all the time, but smiles can hide pain.
If you have a loved one that suffers from depression, there are many good sites with great advice. Just google depression.

Love,
Wendy

On Day 350




28 comments:

  1. I am sending you as much light as I can.
    I too suffer from depression. And I admit I live in fear it will return. Which isn't great, but it's true.

    It is such a heavy and horrible thing. Please take care. There are many of us out here who love and appreciate your words. Even if we have never met.
    Anne

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    1. Oh Anne!
      Thank you so much for those kind words!
      xo

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  2. Dear Wendy,
    I am so sorry you have been going through a difficult time. I hope you are on the mend now. It is such an awful illness. I suspect I suffer from some sort of anxiety but I have not been diagnosed. It's just horrible.
    I am glad you are feeling a little better.
    Thinking of you.
    A x

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    1. Hi Angie!
      I hope you are well these days!!
      I feel much better and I know I will keep on improving.
      xo

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  3. Wendy,

    I'm so sorry. I'm glad you are starting to feel better.

    Wendy P

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    1. Hi Wendy!
      Thank you for commenting.
      It really helps me to know other people care!
      Wendy is a beautiful name!
      xo

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  4. I'm sorry to hear you've been feeling down, I've missed reading your posts. Depression can be so debilitating at time, my issue seems to be more anxiety-related, but I can relate to the feelings of wanting to isolate. Glad things are better, and be sure to check in with your doctor about those meds--take care! xx

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    1. Thank you, Lori!
      I have more to say now, so I'll be back to posting!
      xo

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  5. Hang in there, Wendy! I have missed your sunshine!

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  6. I too suffer from anxiety/depression and I know what a terrible dark place it is to be. Glad you're starting to feel a bit better...take care x

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    1. Dear Silver Birch,
      It is such a hard thing to deal with!
      I thank you!
      xo

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  7. i have been sad and down many times but i have never suffered from depression and i am thankful for that. I am sure it is so sad and lonely. I hope you feel better soon. I don;t always comment but your blog is lovely and another source of inspiration for many.
    Feel better soon. Kats xx

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    1. Dear Kats,
      Thank you for reading my blog!
      That makes me happy!
      xo

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  8. Wendy I'm so sorry you'be been suffering. I go through periods of depression too, ranging from mild to almost debilitating. Your experience sounds pretty severe :-( I'm on antidepressants at the moment, I've realisted it's just something I need to do sometimes. And being able to spot the depression earlier really helps - I'm getting there with that!
    Take care, thinking about you, Waking Up xx

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    1. Dear Waking Up,
      Looking back, I can see where I started the slide.
      Thank you!
      xo

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  9. I am so sorry that you have been in a dark place - but glad you are seeing some rays of light. I am happy that your husband is taking good care of you and that you are seeing the doctor, too.

    sending you some hugs and hell why not, a cream tea too from England (here:http://www.devon-cream-teas.co.uk/shop/ViewProduct.aspx?productID=1) I wish I could really send it to you and sit down with you to enjoy it! lots of love, Prim xx

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    1. Dear Prim,
      Thank you for the tea!
      I have a good hubby!
      xo

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  10. I'm so glad you are feeling better. As you know I suffer from chronic depression as does one of my twins. We are both medicated but, of course, it's a constant vigil. I recently had one of my medications increased after I came out of an episode I didn't even know I was in! (Which tells me I have to listen to my husband more when he tells me I'm going into another episode...I tend to push him off.) This last time left me worried. What happens if the medication just keep increasing...where does it stop?

    And then I remembered...one day at a time. None of us are promised tomorrow so how about I just live in today and make it the best day possible.

    I'm so glad you're feeling better. You can always email me if you want to chat further about it. I'm around.

    Sherry

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    1. Much love to you, Sherry!
      I'm not 100% yet, but I got myself to yoga yesterday. Exercise is so good, but when I get so down, I can't make myself do it.
      xo

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  11. Hi Wendy. Sorry to hear you're feeling so bad. I also know something about depression, and it's rough. Sending you many big hugs! xo

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    1. Thirsty!
      So glad to hear from you!
      Thank you for the hugs!!
      xo

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  12. Dear Wendy,
    Sorry to hear that you are going through depression. I really hope things clear up for you soon. I'm sending you a long, long hug to hide in till the world looks lighter to you.
    xx, Feeling

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  13. wow Wendy, look at all the love you have here! i have sure missed you and wondered where you were!! take care my Love, i suffer sometimes too, and it is blimmen awful. Glad you are coming right. we all love and miss you and look forward to having Wendy back soon!

    hugs
    Lisa
    xxxx

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    1. Lisa!
      I missed you, too!
      I know I'll keep feeling better!
      xo

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  14. Hi Wendy!

    So sad to hear what you've been going through lately. If it makes you feel any better, even though I only know you through your blog, I'm so proud of how far you've come the last 6 months! You've really shown to be someone who is determined, dedicated and strong. It's not easy to post on a blog almost daily whilst juggling the issues which you're dealing with. I really hope you start feeling yourself again soon. I often find it's the kindest of souls that hurt the most, meaning you feel more intensley which is beautiful but sometimes a bit of a curse.

    Really wishing you the best :)
    Francis

    P.S. You're my favourite friend I've made through blogging ;)

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  15. Dear Francis,
    So happy I know a young guy in London!
    I am feeling better today, although it's still an up down kind of thing at the moment.
    xo

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