I am reading a book by Toni Bernhard, called, How to be Sick; A Buddhist-Inspired Guide for the Chronically Ill and Their Caregivers.
I am reading this book as a way to continue on my path of healing with the loss of hearing music and being able to play my guitar and piano. It is also helping me with how I approach my body as I get older. My body is hurting a lot these days. And it is keeping me from doing some of the things I love. But I am understanding this is part of life. I can do other things! I am adaptable.
I am also learning it's not all or nothing.
Maybe I can't play a whole game of golf, but I can play for some of the holes!
Today I am living life softly.
I used to hold on to things so tightly.I would ruminate for hours.
My feelings would get hurt very easily.
I would over-react to things and events.
I was very hard on myself, and that sometimes made me hard on other people.
One of the great things I have learned in AA meetings and the steps is how to stop thinking only about myself and my problems. I am learning to let go of being so self-centered.
I am learning to live a little bit easier, and let other people live a little bit easier.
I don't know if I could have learned these things while drinking, as it would have kept me in the "poor me" loop.
To live a life of ease means I stop and think.
I think through what I want to say.
I keep letting go of all the things I have no control over.
Sometimes when I wake up in the morning I just pray a simple prayer:
"May I live this day with ease, peace and joy. May I be the best person I can today.
May I spread this day with happiness."
With Much love,
On Day 616,