Summer Fun on Day 294

Flowers on my Deck

Dear Readers,
I have been having a hard time coming up with a blog post.
I think it's partly because, it's summer and I AM HAVING FUN!!
I have been focusing on meeting people for walks, coffee, yoga, golfing, or anything.
I even pulled weeds from my garden today! SHOCK!
My flowers on my deck are lovely, my husband is handsome, and I am rather happy.
And I am sober.

Last summer was not so fun.
I was struggling, trying to stop drinking.
I was still hiding my drinking from my Loved One.
My urges were awful.
I just couldn't do it.
Until, one day, I could.

It took a leap of faith, a hope, a dream, that there was a better life for me. One filled with love and laughter, with flowers, and sanity. It has been worth the fight. My marriage is better, I am reaching out to people more, I am growing up a little bit. 

I just need to remember to keep being kind to myself. I still get mad at myself sometimes, and as my therapist said, getting mad doesn't help me solve a problem. I am slowly, (very slowly), letting go of my rigidity. I even went to yoga without my make-up on! It's a little thing, but yet freeing.

If you are still drinking, or struggling, don't give up hope.
But take action.
I couldn't wish my drinking problem away.
I had to do everything in my power to change, asking for help.
You too, are worth it.

With Love On Day 294