Exploring Life on Day 316

Dear Readers,

Riding City Bikes by the Mississippi

As I think about my life before I started drinking heavily, it was filled with outside fun. I never thought twice about going for a long bike ride, camping, skiing, and just being outside.
(Granted I was younger!)

As I started to internalize stress, and my drinking increased, my fun factor was shrinking.
Instead of going outside, I went to bars.
Instead of going for a hike on Sunday, I would go to a late lunch with my hubby just to get a drink.
Or several.
We started to fight over how much I was drinking on the weekends. I wanted a drink even before I had wine with dinner. I had to have it.
If I couldn't get it, I'd pout.
What happened to the fun-loving outside girl I knew?

Now I am exploring life again.
It might not be as fast or hard as when I was younger, but I am learning to be true to myself.
There is such freedom in this.

Last weekend, we rented green city bikes and rode by the Mississippi River.

Donut Love!

We walked over bridges.
We stopped at a local donut shop.

These are the things that cheer me, that make life full. 
Drinking never filled my soul the way this simple Sunday did.


To All My Friends in Recovery: Thank you.
xo