|Waiting For Spring!|
Sober is better.
It just is.
Every night I lay down and haven't had a drink, means it was a good day.
My happy times are happy, my sad times are sad, my mad times are mad. Real feelings in a real life.
I go to AA meetings because of what I hear and learn, as well as what I share.
I hear the pain from the newcomers, or people who relapse, and the contentment and happiness from the long-timers. I don't hear that anyone has a perfect life sober, but that now they HAVE a life.
And they have hope, and give hope to others.
People of all ages with different addictions share how they are trying to deal with life.
They are raising children, helping aging parents, going to college.
These last few meetings were particularly moving, because I realized once again, that I am one drink away from going back to a painful past, that I no longer want to have.
I also heard from one man who has been sober for a year, and said, it was the best year of his life. He is so happy!
When I share, I share about the topic, or about what's on my mind. Mostly I share delight. Because I want people to catch some of the delight that is slowly and surely slipping into my days.
Life will always be raw.
It is full of love and loss.
It is both painful and joyful.
I think I always thought it had to be one or the other.
These last weeks, I have met friends for coffee and laughed.
I have met friends for dinner with hubs, and talked about life, politics, and laughed.
I have argued with hubs, and kissed and made up.
Real feelings in a real life.
All too often I am waiting or wishing for something, when it is already here.
I am so very grateful to all of you who open up your life to me, and share your wisdom, pain and hope.
On Day 545 (I hope, but I should ask Belle! HA!)
PS - My back is still sore and hurts, but I finally called the doctor so I can go to physical therapy.
PSS - Here is a pie I made for hubs a month ago, and I think he wants another one soon!
|Upside Down Apple Pie is Yummy!|