Peace of Mind on Day 583
|Some of the beauty we saw.|
My father-in-law died this week.
We are so grateful he is out of pain.
Thank you for your lovely comments on my last post.
Mr. Untipsy said, "Thank you."
Nothing is better than the peace I have not drinking.
I know I have written about this before, but it keeps coming back to me when I think about drinking.
I have peace of mind that I won't hurt someone while driving drunk.
I have peace of mind that I don't have to hurry to find the bottles I hid from hubs before he gets home.
Peace of mind I don't have to wake up with anxiety and night sweats in the middle of the night.
Peace of mind I won't have the endless depression cycle of drinking and remorse.
I have peace of mind knowing fights I have with hubs are normal, not alcohol fueled.
Peace of mind that I won't be causing more drama in my life due to my drinking.
Peace of mind I won't wake up with a hangover.
Peace of mind that I won't make a fool of myself at parties and have to call the hostess to apologize the next day.
Peace of mind I don't have to look to see if I sent any drunk e-mails.
Peace of mind I won't have blackouts, wondering what I said or did.
If at anytime I think I miss the excitement of drinking, I just need to remember how out of control my life really was.
I am going to another dinner party tomorrow night with my close couple friends. This is still the hardest time for me. I still have so many memories of drinking with them. I am working on disconnecting those thoughts. It's the one time I can get to feeling sorry for myself.
This time, I am going with these thoughts:
I am happy they are my friends. They have 100% supported me through this journey in sobriety.
I am happy we are still sharing good laughs, memories, and good food.
I am happy they can drink.
But most of all, I am happy I will have peace of mind that at the end of night, I will lay my head on my pillow and rest with no regrets.
With Big Hugs,