Wednesday, May 6, 2015

8 Months, or 244 Days

Dear Readers,
Today marks my 8th month of not drinking alcohol.
I am grateful for this. 
It means another day, another month of being sane.
Because really, I was acting insane when I was drinking.
I was argumentative, sloppy, lying, driving drunk, and blacking out.

Today marks another day, another month of being content.
Not that things are perfect, but they are what they are.
Not that I can't improve some things, but I need to start where I am.

Today marks another day, another month of being calmer.
I no longer am creating drama in my life and other people's lives.
Life brings us enough to deal with without adding extra stress.

Today marks another day, another month of healing.
I am healing both my body and soul.
I now realize that this healing takes time.

Today marks another day, another month of learning.
Each day I don't drink, I learn how to feel and process my emotions.
I learn how to love both myself and others deeply with compassion.

I can choose to see my life not drinking as half full or half empty.
Is my life better or worse.
Is it all that I have gained, or all I think I am missing.

At 8 months, or 244 days, of not drinking alcohol I can truly say,
I am happy.

To all my friends in recovery who are struggling:
I too struggled for many years. Never give up.

17 comments:

  1. Congratulations on 8 months Wendy, that is so awesome. I loved your post. I really hope I can get to where you are one day. I'm getting so sick of this constant struggle. A x

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    1. Dear Angie,
      You will.
      Read sober books, reach out to real life sober people who can support you as well as bloggers.
      XO

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  2. Wendy, this is beautiful! Happy 8 months to you. I hated the monster I had become when my drinking was at its worst, it does take time to heal, and patience & support too. So happy for you! Lori K

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    1. Dear Lori,
      Thank you! I'm so glad I met you on Lucy's blog!!
      XO

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  3. Hi lovely, loyal Wendy.
    a huge congrats to you. your unwavering support is amazing and i appreciate it immensely. i love your reach out to people who are struggling as i agree with you, it surely is a better life and we need to persist.
    love from Lisa

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    1. Lisa!
      I am ever so glad you found my blog, and I found yours! You help me so much!
      XO

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  4. This is an amazing and inspiring post. I've read it twice and said to myself that I will keep on going so that one day I would be able to say that I am calmer, happier and wiser. Thank you for this post, Wendy.

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  5. Happy 8 months!!! What an awesome post.

    Sherry

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  6. Hi Wendy,

    I am not sure how I missed this post because Wordpress says that I am already following you.

    But: congrats on your 8 months! It is wonderful and I am happy that you are enjoying your new sober life.

    Hugs, Feeling

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    1. Yay!
      Wordpress and Blogger don't talk to each other very well!
      Drives me crazy!!!
      I am happy I quit, too!
      XO

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  7. Happy 8 months! Calmer....yes .... I like this part of being sober.
    xo

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  8. Great post Wendy! I agree with you on learning how to deal with feelings and being compassionate with self and others...definitely two things I am working on now! :)

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  9. Dear WCM,
    Self-compassion is the most important thing for me right now.
    xo

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