Wednesday, May 31, 2017
I reached 1,000 Days today!
I can hardly believe it!
I remember when other people reached 1,000 days, and I was in awe of them!
Now I am here, too!
Mr. UT surprised me with a delivery of long stem roses, and a sweet card, that had a special meaning.
When we were dating in high school, he would leave little things in my locker.
One time he left a big purple paper flower, with the note, "To the Flower of My Heart."
I have lost and gained things these past 1,000 days and nights.
I have lost 1,000 days of heartaches, hangovers, and hiding bottles.
I have lost 1,000 nights of drunk driving and hot sweaty sleep.
But most of all, I have lost 1,000 days of self-loathing, guilt and shame.
I have gained 1,000 days of calmness, self-esteem, and kisses from hubs.
I have gained 1,000 days of helping other people in their recovery.
But most of all, I have gained 1,000 days of peace of mind and freedom.
How I got here really was a day at a time. A moment by moment decision that I didn't want the drinking life anymore. It had stopped bringing me fun, and was bringing me far more pain. It wasn't easy, and I so wanted to be able to keep drinking.
But I just couldn't.
Now I find I don't want to drink anymore!
I debated about buying myself a treat to celebrate, but in the end, I decided I didn't want anything. I am blessed with the love of Mr. UT. I am blessed with all the things I have lost and gained after 1,000 days. That is enough.
With 1,000 Hugs to all of You for Helping Me,
On Day 1,000,