I Could Find Lots of Ways To Escape
Dear Readers,
I could shop too much,
Or eat too much,
Or not eat enough,
Or smoke (although I don't know how),
Or watch TV all day, (well I did today because of my cold),
Or play on-line games too much,
Or do anything too much,
To escape my feelings, or life, or whatever.
I know there will be days I feel good, and days not so good.
I know there will be days I might choose to watch a little more TV.
But when it becomes a pattern, a habit, or the ONLY way I cope with life,
I know I am in trouble.
I can't run away from stress, anxiety, bad news, good news, sickness, life.
It's a messy thing, this life.
But it's my messy life!
I could shop too much,
Or eat too much,
Or not eat enough,
Or smoke (although I don't know how),
Or watch TV all day, (well I did today because of my cold),
Or play on-line games too much,
Or do anything too much,
To escape my feelings, or life, or whatever.
I know there will be days I feel good, and days not so good.
I know there will be days I might choose to watch a little more TV.
But when it becomes a pattern, a habit, or the ONLY way I cope with life,
I know I am in trouble.
I can't run away from stress, anxiety, bad news, good news, sickness, life.
It's a messy thing, this life.
But it's my messy life!
But how do you cope with the messes? Sometimes I just don't have the strength. I'm so tired of trying. I know everyone has troubles in their life and reading about their struggles and victories helps give me hope when I need it. What helps you say no?
ReplyDeleteDear Reader,
ReplyDeleteCoping with messes is never easy.
I had a lot of them.
I had to say I'm sorry to people, and am I really working hard to change myself.
It took me years to say no.
I had to reach out to real people for help.
Just trying by myself did not work.
I had to have accountability.
That being said,
It's a tricky thing.
I've only been sober for 40 days.
Today, just this one day,
I will not drink.