Being Patient

Dear Readers,
Some, but not all of you,
Know I had a major operation on my ear.
I had a cochlear implant.
Now I have to wait for the processor.
In order to hear in that ear.

The recovery is hard.
I have to learn to be patient.
Very patient.
This is NOT my nature.
I want things perfect now.
Which is one reason I ended up drinking too much.

I kept pushing myself to perform better,
Harder, faster.

Seeing the joy in not drinking sometimes takes 
Time.
One must look for the small nugget, the one candy on the bottom
Of the purse.
Just like recovering from an operation.