Friday, February 27, 2015

Day 176 or 25 Weeks

Dear Readers,
Here I am at ANOTHER favorite coffee shop!
I have too many to count! 
When I got here, I saw 4 people I know but haven't seen in a long time! It was a joy to just give them a hug and exchange a few words, and know they are all well!

I had some thoughts about not drinking.
The first is, I am glad I am not drinking today.
That is all I can handle. 
Just today.
I don't have many drinking thoughts anymore, and if I do, I can let them go very quickly.
Funny though, I went to a movie and everyone in the movie was drinking all the time. Drove me nuts!
I wondered why I noticed that. My hubby didn't.
So, drinking is still a little in my mind.
I'm just glad it hasn't taken over!
I need all the brain cells I have left!

A support system is so important for me. I really do need good people in my life.
I am so lucky I have them. To all of you, my friends, family, blogger friends, AA friends, WFS friends, and yoga buddies. 
I thank you.

Today is Day One of my new goal plan!
I have decided to limit my FB checks to 4 times a day.
Sounds like a lot, but that's way less than I was doing!
I might have to get rid of Candy Crush Soda, but NOT YET! 
I am going to try to limit playing that game to 4 times a day, and when I run out of free lives, I quit. (So keep sending me lives!)

HERE'S THE BEST!!
I signed up for a beginner drawing class!!
I'm not a very good drawer, but this is about me finding me.
I can't find me if I don't do anything!

This makes me feel good because I lost the ability to "hear" my guitar and voice when I got my implant. That has been a big part of my depression, as I was writing songs too.

But being creative can take many forms.
Blogging, taking photos when I am walking and sharing on FB, and even yoga, help me feel creative. 

So, I am ready. 
I am ready to keep healing.
I am ready to love my new life.
I am ready to sing a new song.

12 comments:

  1. The drawing class sounds great! Learning to do new things is always so cool! Plus it's something that looks like magic but then becomes a skill, and that makes you feel like anything is possible. Of if not anything, something, but that's still great! I like your new plan, and I'm glad you are being kind to yourself while you work it out. xo

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  2. Wow this is inspiring! Keep us posted on the drawing class, it sounds exciting. I know what you mean about drinking on TV, movies, everywhere, it seems. It will probably always be on our minds, but hopefully taking up less space ;-) Lori K

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    1. Hi Lori!
      My class starts in April.
      Today I have to clean:(
      Yuck!

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  3. Drawing classes sound brilliant - you'll have an absorbing activity and grow some new positive neural pathways in your brain. All good. Libby x

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    1. Hi Libby!
      Yes, it will be a good thing for me.
      Any outside activities are good for defeating my depression.
      XO

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  4. Almost a halfway to a year. Congrats.

    Drawing class sounds wonderful.

    Right now I am trying to keep my I Pad use in check. I've had different rules but haven't found something yet that feels like true balance with it. I even installed like a net nanny app that people put on tablets to monitor / control children's use but a couple times I needed it for banking or other purposes and the app was blocking my access so I had to nix that. So I can relate!

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    1. Dear Fly,
      Yes. I can't make too many rules or I will just break them. I use my phone for banking, email and other things.
      It's a little better balance I hope to achieve!
      Thank you!

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  5. mmm, well done you for takng action. I mght have to sign up for something too.
    Lsa

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    1. Hi Lisa!
      I hope I can draw something good enough to post on my blog!
      If not, I always have my cell phone photos!!
      XO

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  6. It is hard to get the electronics under control. I often think-I should read a book...then I get caught up in blog land.

    Oh well.

    I am going to try pottery this spring!

    Anne

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    1. Hi Anne!
      I tried pottery a long time ago. I think it is great to feel the clay and squish it!!
      Now I have to put my phone down and clean!
      Hugs!!

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