Monday, December 8, 2014

A Lot Of NOISE

Dear Readers,

I am still learning how "hear" with my new cochlear implant. Much of what I hear still sounds like noise! Music especially, is hard for me to understand. To re-train my brain, I have been listening to music non-stop and it slowly is making some sense to me. 

Really, that is the same way I am learning not to drink. I am re-training my brain to think differently. Wolfie, (Thank you, Belle), wanted me to think the ONLY way to cope with life was drinking. Wolfie made a LOT of noise in my head! 

What is my brain learning?

I am learning to let go of things I really have no control over. 
(This is MOST things in life!)
I am learning to calm the anxiety with mantras, yoga, prayer, and mediation.
I am learning to take care of myself. 
I am learning to talk to people before I get all wigged out over something!
I am learning the world does not revolve around me! 
I am learning most things in life take time. (This is a hard one for me!)
I am learning I don't need to do everything at a breakneck speed. A walk is ok.
I am learning I don't need to "be" anymore than I am right here, writing this. 
I am learning there is no perfect.
I am learning A LOT MORE, and when I think of them, I'll tell you!

But as I go through each sober day, this one thing is clear;
I am learning to make music where once there was noise.

7 comments:

  1. oh, that was a truly lovely Post. thankyou!
    hugs from nz
    Lisa
    www.thecword-compassion.com

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  2. Wow, cochlear implant? That's fascinating. How awesome for you. And only recently? Did you go from not being able to hear to being able to hear?

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    1. It's crazy! Sounds so different! I was always hard of hearing in both ears, but still had about 60% in both ears with hearing aids. Then about 3 years ago I went to 50% in one ear and 15% in the other. Made life real hard and isolating. So...I decided to be brave. YIKES! It was/is a very hard process. I am hearing speech now! But it's different...like hearing the chipmunks!! Lol unfortunately music is not understandable much. I'm working on that because I love to sing and play guitar!!
      Thank you for your support in not drinking!!
      I'm on day 96!

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  3. Beautiful!! May you hear all the music of life!!!

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